Lisa Ballantyne

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The Nature of Influence

To Robert Louis Stevenson, on a visit to Grez-sur-Loing

 

I read you were woken by doves
and here, too, so am I.

I read in the small, worn book
(size of my palm, smell of skin)
written by your cousin, published seven years after
you died.

This here the ninth edition, 1911,
in which I found a four leaf clover
pressed; its green matured inside the closed book
to dark spring, potent, owning its power,
a well-kept secret.
Four tiny veined leaves, perfect and precious
as baby’s fingernails.
It is a gift from the past I have received,
but I know not from whom.

The river is ever changing and yet I see it as the
Self-same river you called ‘pellucid’
but also ‘choked with sedge’.
I have walked over cobbles the soles of your feet have tread,
and now I slip into your water to swim.
The current is strong and your sedge shackles my ankles.

You are everywhere here:
in the sycamore seeds parched on the old stone
in the poise of the gecko that listens to my thoughts
in the whirr and beat of the invisible wings
of aquamarine dragonflies - heard but not seen -
as your enduring voice.

The tug of the river makes my strokes stronger.
I swim hard for shore, uncertain where I’ll end up.

And then, basking, skin drying,
I watch bees thin as wasps work the clover.
On my stomach, in the forest of short weeds
I find my own: can you believe, larger and greener?
I press it on the self-same page where I first found you.


Lisa Ballantyne was born in Armadale, West Lothian and was educated at Armadale Academy and University of St Andrews. She spent most of her twenties working and living in China, returning to the UK in 2002 to work in Higher Education. Her debut novel, The Guilty One, sold into 28 territories world-wide. Her second novel will be published by Little Brown in 2015. She lives in Glasgow. 

Lisa says:

"I was utterly delighted to be awarded the Robert Louis Stevenson Fellowship. It is an immense honour and I hope that this spectacular opportunity will help me to hone and develop my ongoing work, and to broaden my perspective after experiencing this exciting cultural region in France for the first time."